Since it is (almost) official....

I am no longer a member of the Golden Sunrise fancy division.  
That is what I have been teasing at the past week or so.  For some it will not come as a surprise.  I have been stressed the past few months trying to wrestle the idea, it was not easy.  It was a tough decision to make but one that needed to be done.  I am a Mummer but 1st and foremost I am a musician.  I will miss Golden Sunrise (on some level), it was a fantastic place to be in  some regards (the way I could parade with my family), but some things needed to change & they were never going to. 
As a musician since grade school (in some way or another) not playing music was beginning to bug me.  I made a decision 3 years ago (almost to the day) to give up playing in order to settle down & work on my future; I had no clue where life was going to take me at the time.  Here I am married & a mother to an incredible 20 month old who is just as crazy about music & dancing as me! 
Up until a few months ago I seriously considered going back to Uptown where I spent most of my years as a Mummer (2005-2010).  But that all changed for one reason or another (nothing personal to my friends in Uptown, I still love you guys).  But for myself & my family where we are planning on going is a much better fit for us.  It is going to take some getting use to, it wont be easy for me (I already found that out).  I need a good refresher course in playing (ouch!), but with time and patience (on all sides) I can do this, it is what I was born to do (no, seriously, check out my picture from birth, you will understand)!
I look to the future with eyes & arms wide open willing to embrace anything the Mummers have to throw at me. Just because I left one place & move to the next it doesn't mean I am a quitter or that I gave up, etc it just means that I saw where things were going & chose the wiser path.  Life was always better when I was playing music, it was my therapy & escape from a hard day.  Having a toddler & husband can get stressful, bring on the music!  
-Laura

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