The Thoughts of Laura

2020 has been.....yeah....I can only sum it up with "What The Hell?!" January - Started with a great NYE & parade. I saw what should have been the first of many concerts for the year. Work returned to normal, post holiday saneness. February - Work & kids, repeat... March - Where sh*t hit the fan! The last of the normal we once knew. The week of St. Paddy's day was the last thing we did as groups before social distancing and what not took hold. Life was thrown through a loop for everyone, everywhere.  April - Unemployed & kids being home schooled. A new "normal" was taking place, and it was weird. My anxiety was through the roof and I was having a crazy hard time with it. I need to work & keep busy, it was not happening and it was taking its toll on me. I did finally return to work at the end of the month after almost 3 weeks on unemployment, it was nice to get back into 8 hour days & working hard. I spent way too much on things I real...

Went to Atlantic City with Katie for the day yesterday. It was a lot of fun. Walked the boardwalk in the cold rain. Lunch at the pier at Caesar's. Distillery tour & tasting. Hard Rock casino for some $.01 slots & free drinks! Why have I not done that sooner? Then ended the night at Sweet Factory with this amazing burger milkshake; it was crazy good! 

Life is Hard.... ...work has had me working my ass off the last few weeks. I put in 56 hours 2 weeks ago. The holiday season has me stressed at work. I need harder workers and people who actually want to come to work. ...the kids have me on my toes on the daily. Lucas and his ADHD/ODD is hard as shit to deal with. He gets me so stressed. I try my hardest, I really do. I sometimes wonder where I went wrong. ...relationships take work, I get that....but sometimes I have my doubts... ...I am happiest when I am at concerts and I get the chance to unwind and enjoy myself in my element.  ...Jennifer is my best friend, we go to every concert together. We can tell each other everything. ...my family is holding itself together still. It's been extremely hard since my Pop-Pop passed away in April 2018, things still have not been the same since. We all miss him so much. Not a day goes by that we don't think about him. ...I love going to Six Flags, that is the other place I c...

Things are going great. Liam has a strong heartbeat, moving around like crazy, and we only have about 7-8 weeks to go! We are almost there. I had my first bi-weekly appointment the other day & had an ultrasound done, Liam is measuring about 1-2 weeks smaller than he should be, however, the doctor did say it is a possibility her measurements are off because he is partially breech . So that makes me a bit anxious, he only has about 90 degrees to turn so that is better than full breech. 15% of babies at this stage are still breech & only 3% are delivered breech via c-section. So the odds are in my favor that he will get with the program and turn before it is too late. I am scheduled for a growth scan ultrasound in 2 weeks & my next appointment is also in 2 weeks; one is Tuesday, one is Wednesday. I will have ultrasounds at both appointments with the Wednesday appointment being a lot more accurate since it is with maternal fetal medicine. Hopefully Liam will have moved by ...

Well it has been a while. Time for another update. It seems I only get around to updates when I am on my laptop *which apparently is not often enough*. So since January.... I'm pregnant! Baby Been #2 will be joining us in November.  We are hoping for a girl, but obviously boy or girl is fine. I am currently 11 weeks and will be going for my first doctors visit on May 1st. I hope they do an ultrasound for me since most women get one in the beginning & then again at 20 weeks. I will try to remember to post after the appointment. We will be able to find out the sex at 15 weeks, so only 4 more weeks!! I'm already starting to form a baby bump which is crazy!! The pants that fit a few weeks ago no longer go up well & definitely will not button! I am enjoying wearing my maternity clothes, they are comfy. Been got a new job with UPenn which is awesome. It is an IT position which is perfect for him, he really enjoys this job, it's been almost 2 months since he starte...

.....impatient..... Good things come to those who wait, I've been waiting, I hate waiting....AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I wish this cold would go away, 2 weeks!  Maybe 3 weeks, that seems to be the normal amount of time for me. I'm going to lose my mind. Maybe I should go see the doctor...